Wonder

On days like this,
On nights like this,
She always wanted to see him.

She just couldn’t understand love.
How could it made her yearn for him so much?
Yet so afraid and scared that he would leave her?

She hates herself to the core.
For always making him unhappy,
For always making him mad.
How to make him happy,
She just does not know.

He said just by being with him,
Makes him happy.
Yet,
She wonders.
Why does she always making mistakes,
That made him not happy?

She wonders,
Just by staying with him,
Is that enough?
Even though they quarrel every now and then,
And the recently more quarrels,
Just by staying,
Is he really happy?

Under the starry beautiful night,
The wind was blowing,
As if were to ask her to cheer up.
Listening to music for comfort,
Hugging his stuffed animal for console,
She stared into blank space,
And wondered.
How to make him truly happy?